murh... i have had a very bad week...scary things might happen to sara well... i dont know what ill do if those scary things DO seem to happen...but all i can do is wait and find out... yeah, any way, on a happier note, life seems good... lauras coming here for this weekend... but JOSIE said somethings that...kind of startled sara... ok... i told her that her and jessie should come over this weekend to say good bye to laura and spend the last weekend with all of us togeather like old times... and josie said:

Josie: i dont know if i can

Sara: y not?

J: cuse im going to do things with people that ur not

S: wha? so waht your saying is ud rather spend the weekend with people u see everyday in school, and that u can say good bye too at any time, than see one of your BEST friends for one last time and say good bye?

J: yuh

S: WTF?! im officially mad at you... shes one fo your best friends! ud rather ditch her for people u see everyday? u barely get to see her!!!

J: yuh *blocks sara*

then i think she signed on jessies account and said "wtf is your problem?" or mayhaps it was jessie... but u see, i dont have a problem... and now they both blocked me... and its not me with the problem... i jsut think its wrong... i mean, we live in minnesota...and jessie and josie are moving to pennsylvania...and josie doesnt want to say good bye to one of her best friends...i bet shes gonna go hang out with ABDUL or other "more important" people... who in the WORLD can be more important than your girlfriends? especially the ones u have known for YEARS. it just makes no sense... id like to talk to one of them...at least... to try to talk some sense into them so they are able to see laura one more time... i mean, this isnt for me...  ialready said my good byes... this is for LAURA i want her too be able to say good bye... i couldnt care LESS if they came over this weekend.. ti would be nice and all... but i want them to say good bye to laura... and poor laura got really depressed when josie sed she has "other things to do" and josie probably blocked both of us... maybe not laura...but almost definately me... im gonna go on my bfs account to see if shes online...and if she is... then im gonna talk sense to her... brb...

ok.. they werent online...but o well... i guess its their loss... i wonder if they will even miss me... *sigh* o well... i guess all ill have left are memories... and they say theyre moving back...but we all know that WILL NOT happen... theyre gonna find other friends...bfs...etc... and forget about us.. .and stay there... o well...

im gonna go now... bye...

p.s. PEOPLE SEEM TO NOT CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES FEELINGS, AND CHOOSE NOT TOO SAY GOOD BYE TO THE REAL PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT THEM MOST... o well... their choice not mine...

hellooo...im in school right now... i didnt get here till like...10ish...cuse they older people are testing and i didnt have to come till 12:30 but i woke up and was really bored so i deacided to go to school im a little bored.....today is SUCH a nice day... wow... i think me and my ex are gonna hang out at our smoking spot all day today... yeah i try to stay coolwith my exs and still hangt out with them. mmm...hot cheetos...WEE! lol... im sooo hella bored...>.<

hmm... lets see...whats new in life... umm... my hair is dark blueish black and reddish now yeah, hrmm... i have  written soime new peoms... i dunt think theye any good though...people like them. kinda...sorta...they say they do...but course they lie!

hoity! i havent been able to update this because it has been being super retarded to me... >.< ok... yeah, tomarrow, im going to camp courage or something like that with this religious thing i go to called "ALPHA" and its hopefully gonna be fun... yeah, i know, i never thought id get into religion either..baa...haa... leave me alone...but its nothing to be ashamed of... i mean, yeah. lol.

weird things have been happening to me lately that i thought would never happen to me with cirtain people. im so like...wow...never thought in a million years THIS would happen... its like.. EEE! >.<.

yeah... im jsut a LITTLE bit of a dork. >.< one ciggarette left! *cries*

need..more...nicotine! >.<

lol... hrmm...ok...hey. lol. im bored. and i should go to be cuse its like...11...and... i have to go to the camp thing early...and i gotta wake up at like...6ish and such... >.< i hate waking up early on weekends...grawh! *stabbers the early wakingness* yeah.

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helloooo! hi how are you? lol... yeah, i had a few complaints that this isnt updated enough... last entry was a month ago if you havent noticed yeah, any whoo... um.. i jsut went on  a trip to arkansas with my school... it was...interesting...not the funnest cuse it was wet and freezing cold...it sucked...but i saw shiny rocks in big caves

nothing mucho other than that has happened to me... but lately i have been playing diablo II..WEWT! i wuv it...

i had a dream last night...in my dream, i went to a liquor store...and it also was selling CD's and i saw mike there...and i was like... "MIKE!" and he was like omg sara! and i jumped into his arms and we hugged and he was like " i told u i wouldnt leave u, i told u id come back for u! i promised!" and i was sooo happy...and after the hug... i was like "omg i missed u so much!" and i kissed him... omg...it was the greatest dream ever... i miss him so much. *sigh* i wish i could be with him... *sings* id do anything jsut to hold him in my arms, to try and make him laugh, somehow i cant put him in the past! id do anything jsut to fall asleep with him! anpther day is going by, im thinking about him all the time!

i miss him so much *cries* please let me have my mike